I have done a lot of counseling in my life. Many times I have wanted to share a story or two but never would do so for confidentiality reasons. Who wants to see their life displayed in a blog? A fellow pastor was given permission to share one young woman’s life long struggle with cutting. It reminded me of power that comes from just a single word of God. Listen to her story, then I will make a comment or two. The story comes from Dr. James Emery White.
Just a few weeks ago, on a Thursday afternoon, a young woman came by the office to give me something. She was going to put it in the offering plate, but decided to just hand it to me. I was in a meeting, so she left it at the front desk.
On the outside it said, “Jim White,” and underneath, “Be careful…sharp objects inside.” On the back it read, “I thought I was going to put this in an offering plate but I think it would be best to give you directly.”
I opened the envelope, and inside a plastic bag were razor blades. And a letter she later told me I could share.
“I have been coming to your church on and off now since I was in 5th grade. I am now 23…When I was 12 years old I started cutting myself. Now my arms are covered in an overwhelming amount of scars, but I am proud to say there are no open cuts. I have not cut for probably a year now, but I still have razor blades that are hidden around my room…
“I quit when I was about to cut one day but heard Jesus in my ear saying, “I bled enough.” “He took my pain on the cross and I no longer needed to take it out on myself. But I realized by holding on to razor blades I am not fully letting go of the pain and addiction to cutting. I want to fully let it go now…
“It says in the Bible, “Cast all your anxiety on him for He cares for you.” So I’m doing that today. This is an offering plate and I am offering to Jesus today more than any amount of money I could ever offer Him. These are all my razor blades that I have kept hidden around in different places out of my reach just in case. I am handing it over to God and I trust you also with this as well. Thank you for all you and this church have done in my life...” And then she signed her name.
And now I am holding her razor blades in my hand, instead of her holding them in hers. And that is why I do what I do.
Dr. James Emery White
This story is not unlike many I have counseled as well. The blood of Jesus is for you and IT IS ENOUGH! Whether you are a cutter or not, the blood of Jesus covers every issue so you do not have to continue repeating the same destructive behavior. What a wonderful truth. Take time today to cast your cares upon Him and surrender yourself fully to His Lordship.